Michael Leary 10/26/08

Blessing Sermon

            As a therapist, I hear many people with their life's troubles.  Sometimes it's a bad marriage, sometimes it is using alcohol or drugs, sometimes its involvement with someone they shouldn't be, sometimes it is using poor parenting skills.  When we sail on the sea of emotion, where ever we start, eventually we end up in a certain, common  port.  That port for most people is the most avoided, frightening, and shameful place they could ever go. 

            It would seem that most of the problems that I'm asked to help people with come from this place.  I have seen many people who have worked desperately to change things in their lives...  And not consciously visited that port...  Only to have their problems show up in a new form...  Sometimes worse than the original.  In addition, I've seen people ruin their lives as they try to make up for the damage done so long ago.  One of the phrases I use is: "if you use your childhood survival techniques in your adult life, it will ruin your adult life"… because, unwittingly you will replicate what you grew up with.  This we see time and time again.  The very thing that people are trying to make up for ends up insidiously destroying them.  And what they're looking for is what I call “The Blessing.”

            To understand how this occurs, imagine yourself as a newborn child.  Every child shows up innocent, vulnerable, and precious.  In your heart...  You are okay.  Shortly after your birth you become aware of your parents, especially your mother.  Now for children, they don't understand the concept of mother and father.  It would seem with our biological needs of affiliation, we actually see our parents as God.  Not the God described in the Bible or "out there".  These are the people that actually gave you life and keep you alive.  You show up and need things from God to let you know what's what and where you fit in it.  When kids get a little older and are verbal, you can actually hear them say their parents are Gods.  When they say, "my mommy can cook better cookies than your mommy" or "my daddy can beat up your daddy", what they're really referencing is: "mine are the best of the best".  Mine are the real Gods, yours are fake.  Mine are perfect, and that's what God is...Perfect.

            The way God looks at us, talks to us, treats us, tells us who we are.  Whether we are acceptable or not acceptable in this world.  That experience is "The Blessing". That is: you are wanted and belong here, you are unique and special, you are safe and secure, you are wonderful and loved.  When that happens while the child's heart is open they will tend to fulfill the destiny of their soul. They believe they are fine and can focus on what is interesting to them in the world. Their needs are already filled about who they are. Parents tend to give the infant child positive remarks: "That’s good, your right. Look at how smart you are. You’re so pretty or cute". Later on they might say "good job" or "you win!" Parents tend to do that around the world. I call it “jump starting the soul.” The parents hook up their cables to the kid’s heart and get it running till it can run on its own.

            Then the child gets to be about… 2. We have a name for two year olds in this country. Remember what it is? Terrible twos! ...Terrorist...  Terrified.... Why do we see young kids as terrible?  They’re mobile! We have them in artificial environments with things that can hurt them, like electricity or things falling on them. Or, they might break something valuable. So then we say: “No! Bad boy/girl! that's wrong! Quit being lazy! quit lying! don’t be so dumb or stupid!” These and others are used to give the child negative feedback to get the child to behave. Again, parents do this worldwide and we see it as a way to get the child to perform the way the parent prefers the child to behave and comply with the parents beliefs and culture.

            The problem seems to come when either positives or negatives are used excessively or negatives are used exclusively. The Childs most important developmental time is the first 18 months and then the second eighteen months till about three. Then the doors to the heart seem to close and the beliefs are set from then on. There are exceptions to this rule but basically it seems to apply. In addition, before the age of seven or eight, children cannot tell the difference between what they do and who they are.  Parents try to get compliance by using guilt at an early age but it instills shame not guilt. When this locks in.....  The child feels they are "not ok" in their heart and become what we say is "shame based."  Instead of being like God and perfect...  they conclude they are "Worth-less!" For some, they become hyper performers,… human doings instead of human beings. Others become manipulative, oppositional, and defiant.

            What is the difference between guilt and shame? Some people use them interchangeably. “You should feel guilty for that.” “You should be ashamed of yourself.” They are not the same!...  Guilt is the difference between a belief and a behavior. If you tell someone you will meet them at noon at a specific restaurant and don't show up...Should you feel guilty? YES!    Why?...  If you believe in keeping your contracts and don't, there will be your onboard Jiminy Cricket to let you know you are off the road you say you believe in. And the next time you see the person, you will apologize for the inconvenience and try to make it up to them. "I'm sorry, I got held up, and didn't make it. Let me buy lunch for you next time."

            Shame, on the other hand, is who we are!... what we believe in our heart of hearts about ourselves.  This is what we try to cover up so other people don't see it.  How do you hide, I'm a jerk, I'm ugly, I'm fat, I'm black, I'm a girl, I'm gay?  There are people that try....  But it looks pretty pathetic.  Everyone has to try to cover it up though because it's our most tender spot. Psychological techniques are used by humans to do this.  Denial, avoidance, projection, anxiety, and rationalization are some of the more common ways people use. But underneath, it still lurks.

            In the AA format, they have an acronym to deal with this, it's HALTe with a silent e.  Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired, or Excited.  When one of these five dynamics strikes a person, they tend to expose their shame program.  There are other ways to expose it also.  The easiest is to give a complement, and watch if the person is uncomfortable with it.  Because our minds work from a referencing system internally in order to understand what something is…. it will instantly go to the file to comprehend what was just said.  If the file is empty or has something distorted in it, the person will…. in a split second, involuntarily indicate nothing was there.  They may socially try to cover it… but someone watching will still notice.  Then the complementor will know the opposite of what was said is actually true.  Good salesmen and predators are trained or learn to intuit this.  How many of you have wondered why you bought something you never intended to after a salesman worked his magic on you?

            In that cover-up,...  People then try to make themselves "worth-more" rather than "worth -less."  Typically those take the forms of compulsion or addictions: gambling, eating, shopping, sex, work, sports, prestige, money, religion, entertainment, and so on.  We have a number of poster-Children for some of these in society right now:  New York Governor Eliot Spitzer who is anti-crime.  The Reverend Ted Haggard of Colorado Springs who is anti-gay, and Donald Trump.  How much money do you have to have to be okay and quit calling other people losers?  “The Donald” grew up in a family in which his dad called him “The Pest”.  His older brother was the golden boy who eventually broke down under his father's expectations, became an alcoholic, and then killed himself.  When Donald was in seventh grade his dad sent him away to a military school.  It's all about abandonment and not being good enough.  When Donald got to be a senior in high school, his dad then saw he was "the chosen one".  But emotionally it was too late....  The program was already in.  That's why it looks so ridiculous at this point in his life.

            Years ago a freelance reporter from the New York Times was interviewing Marilyn Monroe. She knew that Marilyn lived in many foster homes and so she asked her if she ever felt loved.  "Once." Marilyn replied, "When I was about seven or eight… the woman I was living with was putting on makeup. She reached over and patted my cheeks with her rouge puff. For that moment I felt loved by her." Marilyn had tears in her eyes when she remembered that event. It was such a small act but it was like pouring buckets of love over the parched life of a little girl starved for affection. Why does that story touch our hearts? Why do you think Marilyn Monroe allowed her body to be exploited in her adult life? Was it only about money or was it about something deeper?

            What they are really after is: "The Blessing."  To be good enough, special enough, lovable enough.  When you can't get it from God/parents, then you try to get it some other way.  Affiliation is about belonging.  Friends generally are the earliest.  After that it's girlfriends and boyfriends.  Eventually we tried to get our value from our lover, even marrying to ensure it.  But after a while your partner knows they're using a bulldozer to fill the Grand Canyon in your soul.  It's never quite enough.  At this point, stereotypically, males and females tend to split into two groups.  Men go get their value out of work, power, prestige, money, sports or hobbies and women tend to get it from their children, prestige, sexuality, or interests.  The problem is,… no one can make up for the hole left by their God/parents.  It's a lock and key system.  And with children it's particularly messed up because the energy is going upstream.  The energy is supposed to flow from parent to child.  Not the other way around.  When parents need their children to love them, they eat the souls of their own children.  Parents are supposed to give it to the child so they can launch.  Again It's sort of like jumpstarting a car.  You use your love to jumpstart the kids and then they get going on their own.  Then they come back because of their love and compassion and not because of neediness and starving. Just because one grows older does not mean it will dissipate. Time does not heal this wound.  My own sister tried to get my mother’s blessing twice a year until at 61, it finally cost my sister her life because she was never going to get it.

            All those things that people do to get it.....  Ultimately fail.  Look in your own life and notice how many times you were trying to get someone to think you were okay, to just care about you, to just love you.  And notice that even though they might have given you some of that, it always was short-lived.  And you could become like a drug addict needing another fix, and another, and another.  It never quite was enough.  And the reason is because the file was closed so long ago.  It's not the "you" that needs it at this point.  It's the ghost child inside of us, that still lives there, that is stuck,...  that needs it. 

That's why we look so juvenile when that part of us gets out and is so desperate.  That little, immature, starving, abandoned child.  But the doors to that file in your heart got closed and protected.  The only one that can open it at this point is something that will trump your earlier view of God.  People try to rationalize their way in.  That never works because it's not a reasonable issue for any of us as a human.  It happened when we were emotional and so it has to be healed emotionally.             People use affirmations as an attempt to heal them and although it can help a little, it never really works because rational mind can't access that unreasonable spot in your heart.  It is about your soul, your destiny, who I am, what is my purpose in life, all the sacred questions that the blessing was supposed to give you, as truth!  Now it can't be fixed....  It has to be healed...  Because we are living beings, not mechanical computers.

            "To be blessed" means 'to be favored by God'. Blessings therefore are directly associated with God and come from God. Therefore, to express a blessing is like bestowing a wish on someone that she will experience the favor of God. "May you have a blessed Christmas", therefore can also be translated as: "May you experience the favor of God during this Christmas period."

            You heard me talk with the kids earlier.  Notice the things that they were hurt about or felt bad about.  Notice they all have things about themselves that are important and they feel left out or diminished about.  Did you hear the things that they thought would make it better for them?

            One of the best things this congregation is doing for the children is singing that silly little song as they leave.  Go now in peace, go now in peace, may the love of God surround you, everywhere, everywhere, you may go.  That is being instilled deep within their minds and will live on in them.

Somewhere later it will pop up and hopefully give them comfort.

            When I was a boy, my three brothers and I lived in a 9 x 9 foot room with two bunk beds.  When it was time to go to bed, if you can imagine, we tended to talk and giggle.  Our dad would come in and spank us with his belt.  We went to sleep almost every night crying.  When I married Leigh with the four kids, I decided to change that script.  I would go in to kiss them goodnight and made a contract with them that anything they said would not be held against them.  Most of the time we stuck to that but there would be a few times I would say, “you know there have to be consequences” and they would say,  “yeah, I know.”  They got to go to sleep comforted from the day’s issues.

            A number of years later the kids were all in high school and Leigh and I were working till 10 o'clock at night and getting home about 10:30 p.m. The kids were responsible for getting themselves up in the morning and therefore went to bed at an appropriate time.  They started coming into the bedroom after we got home and arranged themselves around our bed talking until we shooed them to their rooms.  Leigh is the one that recognized we did not have dinner at the table during the week anymore and that was one of the times everyone got to talk about what was going on in their lives.  They still needed that contact.

            When the oldest boy was 22 he came back from Kansas City and after finishing out the day we said goodnight and he went downstairs to go to bed.  A short while later we heard from the basement, “come kiss me goodnight!” I looked at Leigh and mouthed, “Come kiss me goodnight?” He was at an age that both of us had been parents with careers.  Of course what he was wanting was that comfort and security of the blessing again.  To reconnect and know… everything was okay.

            In the book The Blessing, by Gary Smalley and John Trent, they list Five Elements that were important to blessings that parents give to children.

1. Meaningful Touch

Standing close, putting your hands on the child's head, and perhaps a kiss to seal the event are all tactile. This speaks especially to children whose love language is physical touch. Meaningful touch communicates love and personal acceptance.

2. Spoken Words

Our children need to hear why we believe in them and what we value. Children who get only silence from their parents interpret that to mean they are unworthy of attention, that something's wrong with them. It can set them on a lifelong search for approval.

Say this to the child so they hear it.

  • May God bless you and watch over you.
  • May God shine His face toward you and show you favor.
  • May God shine His face toward you and grant you peace.

3. Word Pictures of High Value

A blessing gives words of affirmation to your child.

Speak about one of your child's specific positive traits. For example, "You bring light and joy with you wherever you go." Or, "You keep your integrity even when others pressure you to cave in." Express your appreciation for his or her potential. This shouldn't be a prediction (e.g., I know you'll be a doctor just like your grandfather). Rather it should reflect awareness that this child is a work in progress, someone developing with mighty potential for good.

4. Picturing a Special Future

Our kids need hope that the future holds a place for them. You can illuminate a path of promise for them based on their true gifts. For example say, "I can see that your gift for music is going to bring the world a lot of joy."

 

 

5. A Commitment to Seeing the Blessing Fulfilled

This means you are declaring your intention and willingness to do whatever it takes to fulfill this blessing for your child. You promise to be there to guide, support, coach, and do whatever it takes to help your child achieve a worthy future. You vow to tend to his or her best interests, which you will discover by becoming a student of your child.

            A couple of months ago Leigh and I attend a baby naming ceremony and a covenant of Israel for our Jewish friends in Kansas City.  One of the most striking things was having the grandparents recite blessings for the child as well as the parents.  The rabbi charged the parents with repeating their blessing to their daughter every Friday so she heard it.  This is one of the blessings that was said.

            “Every person born into this world represents something new, something that never existed before; something original and unique.  It is the duty of every person to know and consider that she is unique in her particular character and that there has never been someone like her in the world.  Every single person is an individual, a spark of the divine, called upon to fulfill her uniqueness in this world, to make real her greatest potential to be human.”

There are many variations on how the blessing is delivered. Whatever procedure is followed, the blessing is sure to make the child feel special and loved and give the child fond memories. The unconditional love and approval that comes with the blessing is vital to our self-esteem and emotional well-being.

Even if you have adult children, they my still need that spark of blessing. If you know they are still searching, Help them find a way.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  • Please Bow your heads

Lord, allow me to go back to that place so deep in my heart where spirituality begins,

Allow me to remember so long ago and get in touch with where all those lonely pains reside,

Help me feel what it was like back then so I can free this child that felt “not good enough” inside me.

Permit me to see my parents were just people trying to do what they thought was helpful.

Help me see that I saw them as just a form of higher power from a Childs point of view.

Allow me now as an adult to see my own higher power in what ever form I can accept and believe in.

Have it be a familiarity to my soul that resonates a truth for me-- deep in my heart.

Let me experience that higher presence actually happening where I can see, hear, and feel---as if I’m actually there.

It might be in a place that I've created,...it might be in a place I've been before that was safe and secure,... It might be in a sacred place,... deep within my mind.

And to that higher power, Allow yourself to ask those questions you have been so afraid of...  For so long.

Ask: Is there another person exactly like me in every way? Am I a unique person in this world?

Ask: Am I wanted by you in this universe? Do I belong here?

Ask: Can I be full of wonder and feel “wonder full”?

Ask: Am I lovable? can I both receive and give love?

Now ask another one of the questions you have wanted to know for so long.

Let yourself experience that. 

Ask: Am I forgiven?

Experience grace as fully and completely as you can.

Ask: Can I trust-- that you, my higher power, will guide me from now on from this special place?

Know that you can go to this special place from now on and seek help for your life’s issues.

Feel those changes taking place in your body, mind, and spirit.

We ask our higher power that you are with us from now on.

Now take a moment to say anything else you would like and when you are through come back to this sanctuary

Amen